hmm, ok, this pic isnt that clear.. took it at night.. so pardon me. Its a stainless steel chain i bought in Bugis with my frens.. total 8dollars.. quite ex, well but i need one, had to chain my dog tag and amulet.. hee;) 

ahh, my two bros hee.. oops, i wasnt suppose to put this pic on my blog hahaha.. they underestimate me when i have a cam phone.. oops, Names will not be disclose, ha, what they are doing is simply this: the one wearing black shirt is trying to use his hand to emm.. (censored) and the one in red is trying to resist.. haha, all bullshit, but you saw them how they provide entertainment to you;) 

a empty, or almost empty cup i saw at the market the other day.. hmm, Do you view life as a empty cup? or a cup which havent been filled yet? its your choice;) 

ahh..Flippy, the most fav character ofhappytreefriends hee.. go to www.happytreefriends.com if you ever feel stressed.. i gurantee you will feel better after watching flippy in action ha;) 

27/01/05

hmm.. how time flies.. almost a month will go away of this new year..its just like a blink of the eye.. oops, or i havent been checking the dates recently hee.. well, nvm, life goes on as usual.. Tmn is submission day! detailing of stairs and sections.. frankly, i dont know what grades will i get.. maybe like last year facing the shooting squad.. when you have to face the whole year lecturers and they interrogate you.. sigh.. its not a good feeling trust me..
reasons that i almost fail last year:
1) CCA(too much commitment)
2) Cant C0ncentrate.. actually, i dont really year 1, you only do models and no buildings, kids stuffs
3)was going after emm.. gals, hee.. wasnt keen on doing well for year 1
4) last but not least.. trainings and more trainings make me very shagged out always..

Now.. this year, thanks and praise the Lord, i have two great lecturers.. 1 is a good man, well, both are, but the other is more of a practical type. Ken, and Yen, weird they only have 3 letter words.. but nvm, Ken always give you encouragement... and Yen always give you the deathwish ha.. 9/10 times i heard from him is like this ;"
Dan, you know ah.. your work is borderline, if you dont do well this time, you will fail, you dont wanna repeat this year rite? last time when i was in JC, because of my cca, i have to repeat my first year.. i am sure you dont wanna me like me rite? " (i was thinking, hell no, siao, be like you?? nah.. i can handle it).. ya, i will, i must..

sort of like this.. but he's a good man. I learnt alot from him.. and so ya this year, buckling up my shoes,(with more rubberbands) and pumping my muscles and brain, i geared to do better than last year.. Well, now i am stil trying.. hope that this year can do better.. well, pray for me..

The Dawn of a new age..

hmm, happy that this weekend there's no training.. well, not quite too, was a rowing session, which i like.. but nvm, can always go again next week.. spend my whole day reformatting comp, redoing my CAD drawings because of my own stupidity of deleting them.. and just chilling out.. oh yeah, and listening to my dear mum singing non stop.. she's was cursing and scolding the whole day.. about matters that are so small.. but always make a big fuss about it.. she's been doing that for the last 18years of my life.. and its always the same. Attention seeking. she wants people to understands and listen to her, but always do it in the wrong and offensive manner.. take for example.. on thurs/wed, i skip dinner for the first time because i was doing my stairs, and we had a big fight.. and guess what.. she give my CPU(comp's brain) a good hard kick.. sending it to coma.. ha.. got the whole family affected.. and my dad.. sigh.. my mum always take my dad for a beating whenever the 3 of us, including me and my sibilings make her angry..

Hear me out, believe me, its not that simple and easy as you think. My mum? she's violent, vicious, uncontrollable when she's having her period or a bad day.. she likes missle attack, you can have things flying straight at you, and sometimes at your head. Item she use? anything she sees.. worst time was a glass bowl.. that she hit on me.. luckily thank God it misses.. if not you wont see me writing this blog.. and for my past 18 years.. sometimes things got so bad that we wanna call the cops and arrest her for family violence.. believe me, its bad. Live with me, and you will know. But my bro, sis and i, grew to adapt it.. when i was little, i will cry and blame everything on myself..but now, nah, screw her, she can scream and curse all she want, i just think she's a little gal wanting for attention. I just do my stuffs, and she hits on me, pray that i do not use violence against her.

Do i sound violent? or you may be saying, hey, she's your own mum, you cant hit her.. ya, everyone's telling me that.. there's no justice if she hits you, bleeds you, and you cant hit her? ha.. i dont believe that. Ok, i am just saying, but i wont do it ya.. and ya.. i will never hit a gal, no matter what.. thats a honor i partake.. maybe you will just see a big hole in the wall, but no, i will never hit a gal.

and ya.. to end this entry, this is a promise i took.. upon looking at my father, my mum, my bro and sis.. i promise i will be something special.. and when i am at their age.. I will never inflict pain and suffering on my children.. well, if i lived to that age first;)...

a very beautiful pic just found online.. well, the purpose of posting on my blog is that these few weeks i have been experiencing stress and pain.. and after looking at this pic just perk me up..Never give up, for things may be hard, but its Never impossible to reach your dreams;) 

16/01/05

woah.. just got my new bluetooth usb adaptor.. a very cool device.. hee, can transfer thru and fro from my handphone now wor.. and its fast too, hee..well, its a beginning of greater things.. more will come;) i am sure of that .. bluetooth is a great technology.. ya..

had sea rowing today at kallang, got sun blasted by the afternoon sun.. hmm..trying to learn to hold and control the paddle, how to recover fast, yet correct.. and think i got the technique..
When recovering, draw paddle up with controlling arm, and pull it up to resume to front..
When in water, always use hips to provide turning power, and always always dip the paddle into the water.. hee, its a secret if you get tired, you just keep going down, momentum, except the power is lesser.. but you are still doing it..
frankly, i like rowing alot.. its like a passion, when you see your teammates all doing the same thing, all tired, all thirsty and all hungry, but you see everyone's reaching for one goal, together, with the timing doing the same thing, you will feel extremely charged and motivated.. its what make a team, its what form and bond a team.. Ya its tough, there's no denial in that.. but the rewards are great.. Everytime a training ends, i just tell myself and laugh to my frens, i survive another day;) and just keep on going.. even when i was in rovers.. this is what i told myself " live today, fight tomnrrow"....

And today.. i feel, trapped out again.. i wonder, is it i that always ask and expect too much from people? cant i be just a normal person and live life happily, be fat, slobby, dumb, nerdy.. without a goal or dream? get a gal fren and shop, and blah blah.. live the medrocitic life? i think of that.. but, i just cant. Its not my destiny.
Whats my destiny then? to go out and fight a war.. to live and die for the greater cause... thats my destiny.. not being a person who's chain to his desk doing 8to5 work in the future.. or a happy dad who has 5 kids and grow a belly and grow old.. No.. i cant be that.. i have to fufil my dream, and destiny, whatever it costs.. i will.

I think, ya, i admit i expect and demand alot from myself.. and i think too.. i demand alot from those around me too.. my frens, my loves ones, i always somehow impose my ideas on them.. ok, its for their good.. but you know, you never like when someone shove something into your mouth.. ya, you know the feeling.. ya.. and i found out.. i demand alot from the ones close to me and i love.. thats bad.. ;) well.. i will hope to change that.. but, ya, i still demand the best, cause i always strive to give the best too.. so.. if you cant do that.. you better try to..

wahaha.. arent that too extreme? thats castration btw;)  

Taken from Ebaumsworld.com haha, it reads:CAUTION: CROCODILE EATING HANDICAPPED MAN AT BOTTOM OF HILL!.. omg, poor chap;) 

05/01/05

hmm.. what a nice date, 05/01/05.. any one bought 4d?;) hmm today went to St. Magret's church of the angels.. know where is it? its at Bukit Timah, somewhere near bukit batok MRT station.. had to went there to do detailings of the structures there.. well, first hand experience tells me that this church is missing something.. is it the aura? or i dont know.. just that i feel that something is missing for this church.. oh yeah, it looks cool.. real cool that i didnt know its a church until my bros and i almost the bus stop ha.. and ya.. i find that the architect took quite a no. of other designs from other famous architects.. i have nothing against that.. but i just feel that he can be more creative than doing this. Like i always believe, Make your own path, never walk the beaten road as you may never know what you may find there..;) and well, as again, how can i comment as i am just a archi student? ;) after visiting the site, went to ate at a foodcourt.. hee, went to a DIY shop to find wire cutter.. hee, guess why i do that for..
1) cut wires(arent that obvious)?
2) cut fence and insert into enemy territory
3) steal bicycles
4) break into residential house and peep at gals

haha.. whats your guess? cant be 4 rite? i am not that pervertic;) hee, its 3.. even the guy at the shop ask me if i am needing it for to steal bicycles lol.. i just laughed. He offered me a 15dollar big and hairy bolt cutter.. and assured me this really work, cause that what's he use to steal bicycles before too lolx.. too bad i turn him down as i am running out of resources.. sigh.. anyway, its too big.. cant hide it. You gonna ask, hey, why you need to steal bicycles for?

i will answer, well, maybe one day i am mad again, and wanna walk from North to South of singapore.. and i need a quick transport.. well, i will just snap a lock and get a old bicycle.. ok ok.. its wrong to steal, hey, but those bicycles do need a workout ya;) hee..

alrite.. got to go for dipper(dinner and supper).. today's training is back breaking.. but its alrite..
Quote: No matter how tough and shitty things can be.. take a break/rest, but never never give up... All the best mates;)

ahh 01/01/2005!!

ahh.. the last day of 2004 and first day of 2005!.. what are you all guys doing on the last day of 2004? well, think i have a wire lost.. but i like it;) this is what happen
:
met up with charlene and countdown with her at downtown east.. but sadly she has to go home as her guardian is really in a bad mood.. and ya, it is dangerous. There was no taxis and bus availiable, and we had to walk 3/4 or half than we found one taxi just starting for wokk.. hee, thank God, so she hop on the taxi and left. ok, thats when the whole fun begins.. I live in amk, and i am now in Pasir Ris.. Situation assesement: i have to go home, but well.. dont feel like taking cab, so there is no bus or MRT. i have no map, no compasss, no sense of where i was, and only a bottle of water for me to survive on. Well, being the crazy me, i wanna try trekking/walking home on foot.. haha, so i did...

I started on Pasir Ris, woah.. that place is difficult to walk out.. and i finally did. Walked to Tampines, and saw TP on the way, and kept on walking. Pass Simei, and ya.. now i finally know Simei is a crossroad between Changi and Bedok, so i keep on walking. Man.. there was so many bicycles around.. really feel like taking one and ride hee.. but they all got locks:( and i had no wire cutter. well, nevermind, I finish the journey finally at 6.. and after 5 hours of non stop fast march, i reached Kallang.. and i felt i had enough hee.. Took the first fully packed train home.. and finally fall flat after lack of sleep for 24 hours.

well haha, guess next time i will try other places.. frankly speaking, its a challenging experience, as you got no idea where the hell you are, only to follow your own instinct and road direction, and it takes mental toughness for the long long roads.. hee, but i like the view and wind.. Everyone, try it out one day;)