The Dawn of a new age..

hmm, happy that this weekend there's no training.. well, not quite too, was a rowing session, which i like.. but nvm, can always go again next week.. spend my whole day reformatting comp, redoing my CAD drawings because of my own stupidity of deleting them.. and just chilling out.. oh yeah, and listening to my dear mum singing non stop.. she's was cursing and scolding the whole day.. about matters that are so small.. but always make a big fuss about it.. she's been doing that for the last 18years of my life.. and its always the same. Attention seeking. she wants people to understands and listen to her, but always do it in the wrong and offensive manner.. take for example.. on thurs/wed, i skip dinner for the first time because i was doing my stairs, and we had a big fight.. and guess what.. she give my CPU(comp's brain) a good hard kick.. sending it to coma.. ha.. got the whole family affected.. and my dad.. sigh.. my mum always take my dad for a beating whenever the 3 of us, including me and my sibilings make her angry..

Hear me out, believe me, its not that simple and easy as you think. My mum? she's violent, vicious, uncontrollable when she's having her period or a bad day.. she likes missle attack, you can have things flying straight at you, and sometimes at your head. Item she use? anything she sees.. worst time was a glass bowl.. that she hit on me.. luckily thank God it misses.. if not you wont see me writing this blog.. and for my past 18 years.. sometimes things got so bad that we wanna call the cops and arrest her for family violence.. believe me, its bad. Live with me, and you will know. But my bro, sis and i, grew to adapt it.. when i was little, i will cry and blame everything on myself..but now, nah, screw her, she can scream and curse all she want, i just think she's a little gal wanting for attention. I just do my stuffs, and she hits on me, pray that i do not use violence against her.

Do i sound violent? or you may be saying, hey, she's your own mum, you cant hit her.. ya, everyone's telling me that.. there's no justice if she hits you, bleeds you, and you cant hit her? ha.. i dont believe that. Ok, i am just saying, but i wont do it ya.. and ya.. i will never hit a gal, no matter what.. thats a honor i partake.. maybe you will just see a big hole in the wall, but no, i will never hit a gal.

and ya.. to end this entry, this is a promise i took.. upon looking at my father, my mum, my bro and sis.. i promise i will be something special.. and when i am at their age.. I will never inflict pain and suffering on my children.. well, if i lived to that age first;)...