Omg! the world's fastest shooter!! watch this video and you will know why;)
http://media.ebaumsworld.com/index.php?e=speedshooter.wmv

this guy shot 8 shots in around 1 sec? and whats impressive is he shot 6 rounds, reload and another 6 in 2.99 secs.. damm fast, ha, Oh yeah, with a pistol.. not a SMG or MG... haha, i think the army will loves him, give him a rifle and he shoots like a mg ;) a real asset i will say hee..

On the eve of the competition..there's a flatwater dragonboat competition tmn.. at marchitie.. and.. i am not going.. It really sucks.. i miss almost 1 and a half weeks of training.. its 5 trainings.. 5 crucial trainings.. why? because of my project submission.. i work day and night.. just hoping to do my best, to present my best.. and i really hope i can pass my second year..

i know i may be new to dragonboat.. but i believe i can make a difference, by contributing my strength to the team , even how small it is.. and now.. i cant do anything.. but just hope that next competition i will be there to be with the team.. sacrifices have to be made? ha.. i really hope i pass this year.. pls God.. dont screw me up.. and i really wanna ask a miracle, let V pass too.. let her pass, so that she can finish this course and do what she wanna in her future.. and let us go in our separate ways..

anyway.. its madness having feelings for her.. the guy she wanna i can never be.. though i admit i have feelings for her.. damm..:( wonder how will she react if one day she found out that i am fond of her.. sigh..

damm.. tonight, the 24/3/2005, it seems to me a message is for me.. i just watch tv, and all i see is stories that touched your heart and leave you to tears.. its talk about people, ordinary people.. people you see on the street, like you and me, hit by kidney failure.. and have to live on the machine to clean their kidneys.. its really very saddening to see them have to suffer in pain and its a life time thing.. you know? it doesnt go away just like that.. sigh.. another story, True Courage.. damm, talks about one guy who has great potential in his life.. he was a great hairstylist.. but then one day he lost all that when a drunk man mistake him and hit him hard on his head.. leavinh him 4 years being semi conscious.. breakin him into pieces..

he finally recovered.. but life has changed.. from a once respected hairstylist, to a person with nothing.. but just faith to go on living.. Faith, in whatever you believe in, its the greatest tool one can have.. faith in oneself, faith in Him, faith in going through the day.. it generates hope and believe.. in Him we believe, and in him we shall find our courage..

Now's he sell tissues.. but he has found the plan for his life.. At this point.. What is our destiny? what is our plan for life? This man.. was thrown to such a humble state.. that not many of us will ever go through..the pain, the suffering, i, dont know.. if i can take it too.. And i salute him with all my heart.. He's truly a hero.. he found his meaning in life.. able to wake up from coma and keep living life.. thats really.. admirable i must say...

Faith, empowers you and me, and it gives strength to the ones beside you.. so where can you get faith? it cant be bought at all.. nor it can be seen.. its like a life force.. in star wars game, i call it the force, it gives life, it takes away life, and it does wonders.. and Faith.. is the same thing.. it gives you strength to go through hard difficulties.. I do not question what God you believe in, but i believe how much faith have you in Him..

Tmn is good friday.. and for some reasons.. i am writing this blog about Faith.. and God, and believe.. is it a concidence? or peharps there is a reason i am preaching? well.. its for you to know.. i dont know too.. i feel.. i express my thoughts best when i am drawing or writing.. i cant really talk well.. should i start a book? ha.. feel that i have thoughts in my head.. and the moment i type.. everything just come out naturally.. hmm ..

well..feel that i can write about being confident.. faith, believe.. emm.. good emm.. love making i will say.. hey, i not kidding.. i did in depth research before.. and well, i think it will benifit people.. sure, there are many books out there on these topics.. but should i start a book? ha.. well, give me your comments ya;)

Post crit time.. haven been gone training for a week.. feeling i havent been going for a year.. thats bad really.. why? cause i have been working very hard for my project, 3dviz, detailings and the photoshop.. finally presented yesterday.. well, the performance? my 2 lecturers who screwed and refine me like charcoal to diamond for this whole year were quite satisified with my work ba.. Ken, one lecturer said i am almost there.. i hope he dont mean i wont be there ha.. and the other lecturer, Yen, said my 3dviz is pretty good.. hmm really? i think there are better ones one there.. even my bro 5 i think their panels and viz is better>< anyway.. still got to redo a bit of the panels.. its not so bad ba..

sigh.. compare to a fren of mine.. we went thru the same shit last year, when the both of us have to face the firing squad so call"interview" ha in nice words.. its meant for "special" students that maybe wont make it.. thats why all the lecturers interview and see if we can be passed.. and of course.. she and i.. did pass. and frankly, its not a very pleasant experience.. and again.. i hope this wont happen this year.. pls no.. i make a promise to myself.. i have to pass this year, even if i get a D or C, i will still jump for joy.. you can say i am mad, but i dont think i am.. i was never suited for this course... and i always like to get involved in ccas, dragonboats, outdoor activited.. and sometimes like last year neglected my work alot.. and i got screwed..

Yesterday i must admit after seeing her getting shot down by the lecturers.. i feel the pain.. i think i havent help her enough.. although i helped her with the 3d viz.. its not enough.. and i feel it cause i and her were the only ones that went thru the interview.. and ya.. i really want her to pass with me, so that we can see year 3.. if it happens, then my job is down. sigh.. and the more i help her.. the more i am fallin for her.. damm, whats wrong with me? its totally wrong.. > <
anyway.. dont think she's my type, and i and her type.. like i said, if she make it to year 3;), then my job is done then..

ahh.. damm, the blue blue sea.. you cant get there here.. Singapore's sea is either very green, or very brown and dirty ha.. you can get clear crystal water wor..  

A pic in australia.. near the coast line.. dont think we can see this in singapore;) I wanna be there too!!  

Guess, is this a male or female? Ha.. i am not sure too ba.. but emm.. notice the buldging thing between the legs ha.. (hey, i just spotted innocent k) ;)  

Hmm hmm.. whats his name? ahh, Quakko!! a mix hybrid of kangeroo and rat? haha... is it? my sis took it in australia ba hee.. heard this little fellow can jump pretty high!;) 

YEs!! Submission for the final panel is finally submitted at 1435 today.. ahh, finally can whew a sign of relieve now.. but still.. monday is my crit time.. damm, i dont know if we are placed on monday cause we are the worst or what.. but heck it, since this is the last time.. why not make it the best shot.. there;s nothing to fear or regret i think.. for this past 6 months i have worked my ass off.. getting screwed by my 2 lecturers, and learnt from them. Sure, they had their prep talk with me, but i learnt how to do better drawings from them. I have worked day and night, charging to do my best.. i have seen better panels, drawings even 3d renderings than myself.. ya sure, i get kinda worried that my work is not the best.. but hell, i have squeeze every brain cell for this project.. when last night at 2230 hours the panels are done.. i just know there's nothing more i can do to prepare for monday's shooting.. Will wish and pray that everything will turn up all rite.. and for the rest who's has their crit on monday too.. i will keep them in my prayers..

Hmm.. what is correct and incorrect?

It leaves me to ponder.. what is right, and what is wrong? What is honor and dishonor? What is love and hate? in my total years on this planet.. i have seen, heard, experienced, and suffered and lived.. And, in any case, i just cant put a line over rite and wrong.. We live in a world that knows no justice and honor, you can call it blind, Its us, the people that define what's correct, and incorrect. If you notice on the newspaper, its always the news that someone did something wrong, that gets the headline, and seldom the good gets the headline.. And somehow, i feel.. the moral code of our society is decaying, with all the motal luxuries that blinded our eye.. that all we see is just enjoyment.. the more we have, the more we desire.. its like a neverending of lust. For centuries, men have lived and died for honor.. for what they believed.. its best defined and seen in war and battlefields.. but some can been seen in society also..

I respect the older generations for moulding Singapore of what is it now.. for what they sacriface and fought for.. but i destise and despise most youngsters now.. still a few people i have seen and earned my respect, but most i just cant bear to see.. does anyone lives by a code of honor nowadays? or everyone just wish to gain something without working for it? What do we really believe in now? Frankly speaking.. this is not the life i wish for, and will want to live in, the current trend or fashion, thats just crappy.. people living for their idols, living for what they love and hate.. its another crappy theory.. Just heard on news, our country has the highest sucidal rate.. arent that surprising? Nope.. In order to attain higher excellence in our society.. we pushed ourselves to the limit, sometimes to that it exceeds.. Just like Japan and Korea, only the fittest and strongest survived, its a fight to the last.. but, sure, we got the latest gadgets, movies, blah blah.. when all this ends.. what is left of us when we are all tired old man? i feel.. we are going to a point when we will have a breakdown.. when all will be kicked back to square 1..

"Great things are performed by perservance, not by strength.." being the strongest has no use.. everything will turn to dust one day.. government will fall, civilisation will decay and men will cease to exist..

What is left of us when all these fratal enjoyment ends?

Well?

hmm, its almost a week since my last blog.. pardon to all;) Been busy with projects, Microstation, and 3d viz, more 3d viz.. and checking and rechecking.. now doing the big model out... well, it doesnt look pretty at all><.. Anyway, when i do projects, my mind always wander.. and i am kinda tired of a few things..

1)People keep saying they are sad, i am heartbroken, he/she broke my heart..
2)I keep seeing people bitch and moan when they should keep quiet.
3)People keep saying how bad their lives are.. blah blah blah, and blame circumstances and God for what and who they are now..

I have a answer: Hey, wake up you bloody moaning assholes.. i am tired of hearing how bad your lives are, Get up, Sit up, and listen:

You are here for a reason. No one's here by chance. So what if someone broke your heart? you feel like dying? So what if you fail a test? So what you cant get over someone you love? Damm it, Get over it.

Let me ask these simple q: are you starving without food? are you dying in a gutter with your guts all spewing out? Are you hiding from captives in a war torn country? are you, at this moment, homeless and peniless?

I am very sure.. all of you readers, even me, have a nice roof, a nice place, a place call home, have food in their stomach, have their family with them, only just that they dont feel too good.

Emotions are a part and parcel of life, yes, i admit, it can affect our daily work performance and how we react and think. But, if you put them behind of your thick skull once in a while, you will feel better Trust me. You will feel more focused and determined. And pls, dont blame circumstances or God for your misfortunes, if you fall, get up again and fight the battle, no use bitching and moaning to others how life have been so bad for you.. once is alrite, twice and third times i will start knocking your thick skull some sense.

A quote: " People blame circumstances for what they are. To be successful, Look for the circumstances that you desire, if you cant find them, Make them."

To all those dear people who keeps putting "i have been hurt" in their MSN nicks.. sure, its not my business, but i am tired of looking at it, change it. Get a life, Fix it. Stop telling people i am hurt, cause it arent helping you a bit. Action only helps.

If you wanna see what's the world like, go read the newspaper, watch the news, see how people out there are suffering and dying.Put them in your shoes. After that, then think about bitching and crying. and ya, stop telling me you cant change life, fark you, its your life, if you cant change it? who can? me? God? Only you can. So stop crying and do something about it.

Pardon me for this angry post, but this is the fact.

Sunday, 06/03/05

Just wanna talk about yesterday's sea rowing at Kallang.. first and formost.. SP dragonboats got their typhoon paddles, means everyone, even the juniors.. I sense, or feel that the seniors.. they dont think we(the juniors) are fit, or deserve these new paddles.. For whatever reasons, i can guessed.. We, or I have not proved my worth to hold that paddle.. but i will prove to them i am worthy of it.

And so the training was.. not really good. There's one gal, whom really pissed me off.. She's a senior, but one that i disrespect and dispise. Why? Let me tell you why.. during the sea rowing.. when everyone is tired and shagged, and she was behind me, keep yelling "Faster"! or Go! whatever.. and whenever she does that makes me piss of.. Alrite, let me explain why i am pissed:
1) so what's she a senior? Ha, her strokes all sucks.. she cant run, and she dont turn up for trainings.. why should i respect you?;p
2)That time i ran with her cause she was far behind the group.. and did she say thank you? nope.. not at all.
3)She always have the fark up look, as if someone screw her badly and never satisfy her..
4)If you wanna correct me, sure, Make sure you are better than me first.. if not shut the fuck up.. i dont need to listen to your shit.. feel like taking my paddle and hit her in the face.. but hey, Rule no.1: Never hit a gal.. so ya;p

Anyway.. I feel the current seniors.. the year 3, few are good.. but some need better leadership.. SP Dragonboat just needs better motivation and morale.. the men need to be inspired and led.. and we arent there yet..( we are good yes, a senior pointed out, but just arent inspired yet..)

Sometimes i think.. what will i be or do when i reach 21? for i know.. i may be almost completed my training in NDU.. what will i do next? This question puzzles me.. Will I be a SF or maybe do some other things in life?

Hmm.. a render of my building.. well what you think of it? the lightings arent adjusted correctly yet.. more work had to be done.. but anyway.. i hate Viz 2005!! screw you all bastards who make it.. I use 2004 made this.. Viz 2004 Rulezs;p Anyway.. Viz is a program used to create architecture elements.. very powerful ba;) Posted by Hello  

Sorry it isnt clear.. thats me after swimming ha!! Excited Tigger hee..;p 

The brochure to sign up.. first time getting this and taking part.. excited excited hee!!;) 

Yes!! Hoo Yah

well.. me just came back from Swim trails of Singapore Biathlon 05.. got to swim 30laps in 40mins.. manage to do it in 35 mins.. hell of a swim ha..

Ringgg.. stupid alarm!! woke up at 1730.. feeling very groggery.. like a bloody frog havent wake up yet.. had to take a nap, shagged after last nite dragonboat's training.. so wake up, did my project.. had a bread and glucose drink, and Out i went!.. The swim trails was conducted at Yishun Safra.. so i didnt know where the hell is it.. had to ask the bus driver.. and finally i reach late by 10mins..ha

everyone was already there.. 30 to 40 years old guys.. all got beer belly wan ha;p.. anyway, the instructor(who's a diver, NDU instructor) ask me if i am dan, he sounds excited? wtf.. he told me to get changed and get my ass in pool.. did that in 10secs, and Off i jump into the pool...

3, 2, 1, Start!.. Swim, Knock, Bang, and the swim begins.. at 4 to 5 laps, my dear goggles give way.. and i see nothing more except lights .. hell, i just kept on swimming.. 10, 15, 20, damm aching muscles.. 29....0.0.O 30!.. Did it.. whew.. caming out of the pool, the instructor congrats me that i passed.. i was like half past swinging here and there? Like a drunk.. ;p

Afterthoughts:
Well.. first time taking part in Biathlon.. so ya, no experience.. i had to admit i was feeling kinda tensed up when the goggles give way.. and my breathing was heavy.. thank God i manage to calm down and swim all the way finish.. whew.. Anyway, got to get some food.. still feeling very groggery groggery.. like on a rocking boat ha..

Singapore Biathlon, Here i come! Hoo Yah!;p