Post crit time.. haven been gone training for a week.. feeling i havent been going for a year.. thats bad really.. why? cause i have been working very hard for my project, 3dviz, detailings and the photoshop.. finally presented yesterday.. well, the performance? my 2 lecturers who screwed and refine me like charcoal to diamond for this whole year were quite satisified with my work ba.. Ken, one lecturer said i am almost there.. i hope he dont mean i wont be there ha.. and the other lecturer, Yen, said my 3dviz is pretty good.. hmm really? i think there are better ones one there.. even my bro 5 i think their panels and viz is better>< anyway.. still got to redo a bit of the panels.. its not so bad ba..

sigh.. compare to a fren of mine.. we went thru the same shit last year, when the both of us have to face the firing squad so call"interview" ha in nice words.. its meant for "special" students that maybe wont make it.. thats why all the lecturers interview and see if we can be passed.. and of course.. she and i.. did pass. and frankly, its not a very pleasant experience.. and again.. i hope this wont happen this year.. pls no.. i make a promise to myself.. i have to pass this year, even if i get a D or C, i will still jump for joy.. you can say i am mad, but i dont think i am.. i was never suited for this course... and i always like to get involved in ccas, dragonboats, outdoor activited.. and sometimes like last year neglected my work alot.. and i got screwed..

Yesterday i must admit after seeing her getting shot down by the lecturers.. i feel the pain.. i think i havent help her enough.. although i helped her with the 3d viz.. its not enough.. and i feel it cause i and her were the only ones that went thru the interview.. and ya.. i really want her to pass with me, so that we can see year 3.. if it happens, then my job is down. sigh.. and the more i help her.. the more i am fallin for her.. damm, whats wrong with me? its totally wrong.. > <
anyway.. dont think she's my type, and i and her type.. like i said, if she make it to year 3;), then my job is done then..