On the eve of the competition..there's a flatwater dragonboat competition tmn.. at marchitie.. and.. i am not going.. It really sucks.. i miss almost 1 and a half weeks of training.. its 5 trainings.. 5 crucial trainings.. why? because of my project submission.. i work day and night.. just hoping to do my best, to present my best.. and i really hope i can pass my second year..

i know i may be new to dragonboat.. but i believe i can make a difference, by contributing my strength to the team , even how small it is.. and now.. i cant do anything.. but just hope that next competition i will be there to be with the team.. sacrifices have to be made? ha.. i really hope i pass this year.. pls God.. dont screw me up.. and i really wanna ask a miracle, let V pass too.. let her pass, so that she can finish this course and do what she wanna in her future.. and let us go in our separate ways..

anyway.. its madness having feelings for her.. the guy she wanna i can never be.. though i admit i have feelings for her.. damm..:( wonder how will she react if one day she found out that i am fond of her.. sigh..