The eve of my doom.. haha, ok, its arent that bad.. tmn is portfolio review.. as history will repeat itself.. alrite, let me explain.. every year.. for my course in architecture, there's a so call"interview" every year end.. its when all the lecturers will line you up on a wall, and start their MG firing.. not many people can survive it though.. some will come out in tears, others like me dont feel too good too.. they will grill you, roast you, SM you, and the best part when the (dwarfty) director sits in the middle and order her minions to roast you to perfection.. and laugh.. thats the worst part. All courage leaves immediately .. haha, sounds scary? well.., right now i am prepared for that.. its not i did badly this year.. i put in every ounce of brain power and creativity into my building.. and frankly, i did what i can.. But hell, the lecturers seems attracted to me, and invited me to a yearly tea session with them.. which i enjoy not.

I did some praying today.. not for myself, but for her.. you know what i pray for? that She will pass and get on to third year.. and i pray that this will be the end of the story.. that we will stay as frens, and everything will be alrite.. ahh.. crap, a little voice just keep saying:"ha, are you kidding? the more you hope not to think of her, the more you are thinking of her.., you cant deny that cant you?;)" ya.. i cant deny it.. when i am with her, there's nothing. but when i am not with her.. i think of her. its pretty weird. What's funny about her.. is that she always is very gan jiong..(means get worried easily) although she looks calm, you know, and if you look at her for the first time, you thought she can do anything.. but heck, when you know her for very long ha, its a different story. Things are just getting more strange.. i am finding her more attractive, i dont know why the hell..and the most X factor that captures me.. maybe is her Smile.. all her laughter.. its just like any small thing, she can laugh her head off..Ohh ya, she has nice voice too!! hee..

What happen today, 7.4.05:
ha, a different account from Shawn's blog, read it if you wanna;) http://www.shyz.blogspot.com/ ..

Ring!! godamm alarm clock!
so ya.. woke up at 0716, just woke up.. gotta meet vivian to plot the resubmission for the project..call her at 9am.. suspecting she's still in dreamland.. i was rite.. so she called back(just woken up).. and we arrange to meet at Dhoby Ghaut at 1? she went back to work.. and i went back to my roasting and tiling plan.. hee, weird, her voice sounds the nicest.. so anyway, went there at around 1330, met up with Snoopy and Panda(shawn and deyang), went to the place to print.. print print, then vivian finally arrived in a cab, and complain to me the heat is melting her, and when we are paying, the godamm woman told us its 5dollars per piece!!! it was suppose to be 2.5 as we are students.. and everyone was shocked.. and i was pissed, goddamm it.. i changed instantly to Flippy, and growl at her, one sentence that i hate most" Next time check the price before you print" sure she's rite, but how the hell did the price went up with no one knowing? so the unhappy lot of us pay and forever condemmed the shop.. and the frowning vivian started to grumble about she havent print, and redhill is cheaper.. and the ever cursing me started to curse and swear at the shop.. i have to be dragged out of the shop before i started to burn it down hee.. after that, shawn and deyang went to sunshine plaza and print their a3 sizes stuffs.. which they waited for 3 hours lol... vivian and i went to took a cab and went redhill to print, only 2 dollars she say.. (at this pt, i wasnt feeling that great, first, i never like taking cabs, second, i only left with 5dollars that i borrow from shawn).. and i started to frown also.. so anyway, we reach redhill, 4.70 dollars.. ha, left 30cents! whew, i dig out my wallet and i found 4 dollars;) so ya.. we went to the place and plotted, and went for lunch after that.. and vivian still complains the heat is melting her.. ha, she still have laksa when its so hot! lol, and a cold tapoica soup to cool her off.. when we reach the mrt station, the train to Pasir Ris is left with 3 mins, and she gotta buy a ticket.. haha, i dont know whats rushing her, she pushed the coins so hard that they got rejected, i was like>< relax, vivian, we still got time, relax relax.. and so finally we got the ticket, and got home in one piece..

Ahh.. i dont know if she knows.. how i feel towards her or not.. but we are keeping our cool very well at this moment, and i dont know whats gonna happen.. and i am holding my breath..