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Meaning of my name: ;p

Dan


There is no doubt that with your great self-belief and powerful personality you are meant for positions of leadership. Others find you inspiring and you seem to attract success and good fortune easily. You have a strong mind and clear thinking giving you the ability to make quick decisions and take calculated risks. Being prepared to take one step at a time means you will be assured of achieving all your objectives.

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Hmm, different personalites

We are different in different cirumstances and situations, in a way, we behave different. Be it our loves ones, frens and strangers, we are different people. Do you agree? to my good frens, i am a horny and jumpy person, hee, but to others, i am a cold blooded and calculated one. To her, i am another person.. it all goes down to how we see and perceive people. Do we feel hostile with them? or do we feel free and relax?

In enemy territory game, i am yet another person, my nick is the archer. How am i different in real life? demanding, team leader, always asking the rest to do their jobs and win the objectives, a much more advanced and matured i.. sure its just a game, but somehow it brings out the different side of me. Sometimes it feels realistic.. every split second you have to make a move, and if 1 is wrong, you either die or fail your team, the whole team gets wipe out. Anyway, just to explain further about the game:
Allies team and Axis team:
Medic- job is to heal and revive( secondary)- job is to charge into enemy spawn and instil fear as they can reheal on themselves

Fldop-job is to call for arty and airstrikes on those poor enemy bastards. (secondary)-give ammo, and to spawn kill the enemy.

Soldier-job is to be noob and kill more the merrier with his panzerfaust, a deadly rocket that can kill 5 to 6 at 1 time.

Engr-job is to build and destroy anything. (secondary)- plant mines, and kill enemies with his very accurate rifle nade.

Lastly, Covert op- job is to steal uniforms, infiltrate and destroy enemy base.(secondary)-provide smoke cover for teammates.

Each map has its own special objectives and goals. 1 team is to defend, or 1 team is to fufil the objective, either to destroy, or get a tram going to fire the gun. It all depends which you are in. They are the same, either work together, or die together. So thats all for today folks;)

Thoughts and Thoughts

Just read Shawn's blog.. which i kinda agree with him.. go read his blog first.
http://shyz.blogspot.com/

Local polytechnices are sometimes sad.. indeed.. like in class.. everyone have their own gangs and cliche, thank god i am blessed to have a group of comrades and brothers who understands and are on the same frequency too.. This i agree with shawn.. Sometimes when i see my juniors or frens from ex cca, we will just say hi or bye.. thats all.. seldom do i get a chance to talk to them.. sigh.. seriously i dont get much frens.. as because of what i am and what i think.. seriously i have sometimes too much pride. I sometimes think people are weak.. and i am better than them. But seriously.. what i see disgust me, mediocre and pathetic beings.. thank god i am not 1 of them. but i learnt that everyone is inperfect.. and its better to see their goodness, then their flaws. So ya.. i have learn to accept, to a certain degree of tolerance.

Damm, why do i always wanna change something? whats really makes me jump around in frustration is that when you wanna do something for that person, it just feels like you cant do anything.. it makes me feel inferior, it makes me feel damm pissed, it makes me wanna do something even more. Sometimes i wonder why i am endowed with these situations.. that test my endurance and tolerance for something.. that put me in such a shitty situation that it can be shitterier.. maybe its for experiences? or maybe God is just laughing his head playing his tricks and pranks on me.. >< about going U? hmm.. i seriously have no idea.. my future for the next 2 years is so damm clouded i cant see a thing.. I just have to follow my heart..

Woah!

woah.. a weekend of 3 movies!:PP weeee.. friday watched "fantastic 4", yesterday catched "the island" and sunday watched the vcd "the pacifier" lol.. all 3 movies are fantastic! anyway, here's the review of all 3 movies!;P

Fantastic 4: great marvel movie.. the plot follows closely the comic, the action and visual effects are excellent.. wee, invisible woman is hot;) oh yeahhh... the movies shows how they got their powers, and how in the end they come to accept their power as a gift, and not as a gift. The last member who overcome his barrier that his powers is his gift is "the thing". He's was a sad story as his wife rejected him when he came back from space in rock form.. poor chap, but hey, he in the end got another gal;) Anyway, nice movie. 4/5

The Island: ooo.. dark theme.. talks about the future, in the year 2019. Last haven from contamination and death, the survivors are granted the lsland, or is it so? no way.. these people are all clones, being fed and kept alive like cattles waiting to be slaughtered. Why? cause they are life insurances, meaning if the real person needs an organ or dying, they will kill the clone and take the body parts.. yes, its is a very disturbing thought.. and especially when the clone is still alive, they just take out the body part.Lincoln Six-Echo ( Ewan McGregor), is the main character in the movie. He's the real special clone as he inhabit memories of his real self, thus enabling him to question the endless utopian world they are living in.
Jordan two-delta(Scarlett Johansson) plays the female lead in this movie as well.. together, they found the truth and become fugitives, hunted by a group of special mercs.. anyway, watch the movie you must;) But, but, be warned that it is 3 hours. Its worth all your time trust me, never make me sleep so dont worry;) But then, watch for the story plot, the cool techno toys they have, and lastly, the hot babe, yaaaa...4.5/5

The Pacifier: ahh borrowed vcd, talks about this super navy seal who is assigned to guard 5 little kids, from imiment danger. Its really a hilarous movie man, be in for a good 1h30mins of laughs ;) He really treats the kids like soldiers ha, and really all done by military style. The movie has a kiddish yet entertaining theme though.. borrow the show for a good laugh;P 4/5

Anyway, ever feel life is turning to be better? these few days i feel that it's getting better.. especially yesterday.. it was just A great. went out, watch a movie, had dinner and send her home;) thank god no misfortune happened.. whew.. sigh.. really wish things was as good as like yesterday.. well, I thank God for his blessings.. and the gifts he granted me.

Hm friday..

wake up today feeling better.. without a sledgehammer on my head.. went to sch for project at 11.. hee, actually got to be there at 10.. but anyway, had time doing revised plans and got lot of shitty jobs to do for the next week break.. its not a break, nope, for us architecture students. Hmm, at 1230 today, after lunch, lester, vivian and i went to adrc since the lab is not open.. i found a journal of previous years work.. and god almighty.. its a A grade.. sigh.. just so damm good.. well, i did found lots of useful info, and hee, will go back for more;) think that become my research info;p
When i think back about the 2 years before.. those dark times.. that i felt regret in what i did.. that i didnt focus enough.. i never wanna go back to that dark road. never.

Went to play xbox with bro 5 and her.. after that 1830 rush to bishan J8 to watch movie "fantastic 4" with my siblings.. its quite good though;)

anyway, feelings and feelings.. shitty it is. I do not know whats gone into me.. when i am with her, we can talk and laugh like frens.. but when she's gone i start missing her.. damm me. Sometimes i wish i can let her see i am more than her fren.. but sometimes i wish that thought would not occur.

Oh lord.. help me.

Ahhh.. time for new post! hmm, hmm today felt like a sledge hammer on my head.. so so shagging.. cant keep my eyes open.. >< mainly because i slept at 4 last night doing the structural grid and elevation.. and also maybe i dreamt too much again.. its like my dreams took all the time i slept.. so means i never sleep too.. wth... you know i dreamt everynight? close to.. sometimes its just awhile..and sometimes its so vivid like i am in another world.. doing God's know what. Sometimes its shows the future.. and sometimes a fragment of the past.. well, seems like i cant control it..

Anyway, had 2 lectures today.. 1 is about Quality thingy of being a architect.. and the second is hearing Mr Toe talking about his story again.. sigh.. 1/2 hour got to hear he speak about his stories and idea.. blah blah blah.. shawn was drawing bro 5 drawing, cher hao was trying "hard" to concentrate.. think deyang was stoning, and i was trying to stay awake.. zzz... anyway, thank god he's willing to let us go at 1630.. whew.. after that cher hao went to see him for his work.. sigh, seems like that Mr Toe screw him.. seriously.. i wont want to see him.. blah, i rather discuss with Miss Chew or Mr Neo, who are our better lecturers.. this guy always need to call his engr to ask about things.. why dont we just employ his engr to save us the trouble? sure sure, his ideas are rite, we should think on our design.. but whats wrong, is that NEVER TRY TO BURN ANYONE.. no one likes that.. what everyone's want, i find out, your respect. If you are a person who always like to implement your ideas(be it right or wrong) on others.. seriously you will find you have few frens.. the rule is always simple, take things easy.. and i dont like the way he tell cher hao like that..

sure, cher hao is kinda behind time.. but he got a talent. He will be fine in the end. Anyway.. after that went to get cher's cutting mat.. saw a year 1 or 2 student kana shot very badly.. think was his idea and how he express it.. and secondly, 2 lecturers started to get very hostile and taking it personal.

From my point of view:
1) Student express wrongly his idea, and maybe its sensitive.
2) 2 Lecturers took things too personal, lack of professionalism
3) Bad timing, at 5, everyone wanna go home.. lecturers criting there wont have good mood.
4) Student refuse to back down, or use *smoke screen*

Smoke screen: orginated from dan, widely used now.. hee, used in critcs to smoke the lecturers and avoid getting shot into pieces. ;)

He need to know whats smoke screen:
1)When in a hostile situation, like being shot by 3 lecturers who had a bad day.. keep your crit short and simple.. easy to understand.
2) Say what you need about your idea, when you feel you are under pressure, just smile and agree to whatever they say. This is a losing battle..the more you resist, the worst it gets.. sometimes to get out a ugly situation is just simply to relax and let a step.(fight another day)
3) Lastly.. always jot down what they say.. never take things personally, no matter what bullshit the lecturers may say.. You can swear and curse later.

So that marks today's post;) till next time.

Remembering the older days..

Sometimes i see the people who resemble what i was 3 to 4 years ago.. i cant help but feel kinda jealous.. a more active, spritied, gung ho, cheerful me exist then.. but now.. it seems to died down alot.. maybe not so active due to work.. and maybe due to the changes that evolves and change a person in these short 4 years. But still.. if i was think back.. That time it was fun.. when i just came in into poly.. joined straight into Rovers.. wanted to have a fresh life from NCC, which i was in in sec sch. Utmost discipline, with no factions of emotions during trainings.. expecting the best from my sec1, same from myself.. during that time.. i was like.. inhuman. Then came to poly.. join rovers.. then.. its totally different.. Scouts.. i admire their skills.. but never their style and discipline.. its totally horrible. From the time i was in.. i learned their skills.. which are very important, first aid, rope, basic survival skills, kayaking, and living on the outside.. i must say they are useful.. but during these times in rovers.. seriously i still cant really adapt to the lifestyle they had... discipline is transparent.. fun and more fun.. blah.. alot of bullshit theory that sometimes at the back of my mind i was showing the third finger to the way they handle and do things. When i was in sec sch, NCC always never go well with Scouts.. one thing is that we always look down on their discipline and style. But Rovers.. i must say there were a few good men, i respected alot.. not all scouts are bad.. only some. Ya.. it was an eye opening for me.. a good learning experience..

Although, i felt the fire inside me died down.. peharps, i have seeing the world more differently now.. from a different prespective and angle.. And again.. what will the next two or more years be? what will i change to be again?

Have you ever have the experience that you wanna be with the person.. but the person just wanna you as a fren? yup.. i had.. and i seriously can understand what my good fren's situation.. Although i must say, i do not have the patience like my fren.. for this, i must applaude him.. well.. i never like waiting for a person for too long.. if it doesnt work.. then might as well lets part. But hey, if you are really happy with this configuration, then i have no say in this too;p just commenting to myself as always.

Note: This post has no strings attached to anyone or blog, just a thought.

the future..?

When you think of the future, what do you think of? For me, next year is going into NS... i am not afraid, but just nervous that.. i may not have the strength and determination to fufil my destiny.. or in other words, my dream, to be a naval diver. Next year.. everyday i thought of it.. it draws nearer and nearer.. How in God's name can i survive the hell week..? it's all seem so impossible now.. and it seems, somehow, this is like a journey of my life.. i have to go through it, be it takes everything i got.. be it if i have to sacriface..i will and i must.
Why sometimes do i feel that this path i have to take is so cold and alone..?
Why sometimes i feel sadness at how the world is now..?
Why sometimes i just seem not to understand how materialistic and shallow people can be now..?
Why sometimes i feel so down, that i see no heroes in real life, only in movies and shows..?
Why sometimes, the world revolves around cheap and useless things? like fame and fashion.. things that never last.. why does people spend their time and lives on it?


"Why do we fall?, So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.."
-taken from Batman's Begin-

So so long...

woah.. been so long since i last blog.. hmm what happen? well.. been busy with project, site model and own models.. well, talking about models eh.. i seriously cant do well, but, but.. i will learn and do well. With each model i make and tried, it will get better.. experiences always let us learn.. either the hard or the easy way. The hard way always get us learn better. Anyway, these few days about site model.. hmm, its pretty a stressful thing.. its like.. it concerns everyone in the class, not only yourself. Thus the standard displayed must be of a certain degree.. and it seems i am not there yet.

Do you know why we respect and hate someone? Its always by the action. I have these two lecturers.. Miss Chew and Mr Toe. (lol, toe?) both are lecturers, althought toe is a part time.. frankly, i respect miss chew and cant stand mr toe.. why? simply because of their actions. When they both teach, its different. when miss chew teach, you can feel that she did her hw, and does her best to let the class understand whats she teaching, and makes a point to help the class.. and most important.. its her passion and zest that earn my respect for her. And ya, when i see her.. she will help me and answer my questions, and stress its very impt to bring scale rule, rather than screwing me.

Hmm then mr toe? he's a practicing architect.. but blah.. i havent see him once for my work.. Pls spare me the stories you told others... i think everyone share the concern he cant really teach.. but well, its his first time in the teaching field.. i have a feeling peharps he's better use in the industry, then in teaching;p

A little introspective

Sometimes, we fall. Or we think we fallen. Sometimes, life seems so bland, hard, meaniless, painful and difficult. When these time comes, i always lay low.. do what i always do, and pray to God that he will give me the strength to go thru the hard times.. but, but, there's 1 thing i will never do, is to gain sympathy. I do not need's anyone's sympathy. And, peharps.. the least you can never do. The world is strange.. of all my 19 years of life.. i found out.. you always got to give, before you can get. And, there's no balance.. sometimes the amount you sacriface, does not balance to the amount you get.. but hey, i always think.. to give, to help, is the best thing.. better than receiving. But nowadays.. there's more and more people who want to receive.. and not helping or giving or sacrifacing first.. its sad. The most ugly trait of men, is selfishness.. forget all the bullshit of civilisation.. we are never civilised.. put 20men and women in a hostile and tense environment.. and you know what is savage.

When you experience good times.. be sure to stockade your ammo, your supplies for the bad times.. make good frens, and good allies.. for you never know when you need them. And of course.. make few enemies.. but if you were to make them, let them be closest to you.. always.

Anyway.. sometimes, the sight of how shallow and complicated people can be.. it disgust me. It;s like a disease, a epidemic that is always there and will always be there. And actually.. ever heard of the donkey and carrot thingy? see life like this.. if you wanna get anything.. ask for it, then hold, and then hold again.. and ask again. You will get it. Trust me, it always work.

Another pic similar to Enemy Territory.. again, the axis dont have such nice clothes.. just grey cloth.. but the guns are all same. Anyway, ET is a very much intense game.. kill or be killed. Work together, or die together as a team.  

Pic Similar to Enemy Territory.. though its not liddat.. just similar, the clothes, guns, and environment, very WW2.. but ET is more team based and intense, very much intense. 

Another Picture of Unleashed..  

A wallpaper of Unleashed.. Read the entry below for more info about this movie;)  

Why i should never drink Coffeee..

Fri, wow.. had class at 1pm, then for 4 hours.. it dragged pretty slow.. had a discussion with lecturer about my design and blah blah.. then did some few stuffs.. had a lecture of ES while i was playing handphone games on my phone hee.. after 5.. waited for deyang and cher hao for their meeting of their HK trip to finish.. ahh, the reason waitin for them is cause we all wanna go buy "original" vcds hee.. secret location.. so ya, waited till 6, then left.. Well, while on the way out of sch, cher hao's dear sandals decided to retired hee.. so he has to limp and limp.. lol, peharps for laughing at vivian's limping a few days earlier?;p anyway.. so went to Bugis, we all deployed ourselves to search for a suitable slippers or sandals for cher hao..

And finally.. we found a shop that sells the big ape size cher hao has.. and everyone put in money for his sandal? or slipper.. hmm i am not sure.. but to me it looks kinda.. weird.. as the front has a round thing that covers the first and 2nd toe.. ha.. anyway, we were kinda disappointed when the uncle didnt appear to sell his wares..><

anyway, i forgetten to mention that my k500i's front cover decided to drop out too.. so ya, my 3 bros and i went around trying to find the case.. and damm, its pretty hard, no one sells it. And finally, at 1 shop.. the credit goes to cher hao.. he found the case for me... the case of the phone finally appears after much eludsion.. thank god.. and thank everyone to help me find a nice case;) hee.. its pretty nice and original.. though its not "original"

anyway.. went home, borrowed the "Unleashed" vcd.. had a hair cut..Woah.. the show is pretty nice.. the excellent fighting scenes, and how he was really treated as a dog.. A.k.a danny the dog.. they really caged jet li in a cage..and even feed him dog food. but when his leash is taken off.. woah.. he fights like a crazed man.. anyway, the story line is pretty compelling.. and if you like fighting movies, go for this one;p

ahh.. after i finish watching.. it was like 1? and damm, I SHOULD NEVER DRINK COFFEE ONLY ON EMERGENCIES.. as the adreliane pumps.. i decided to go for kills in my still fav online game, for 3 years.. ET(Enemy Territory).. woah.. did damm well, and when i finally felt tired it was like 5? ha.. thanks for the help from caffine.. oh well.. now i am having a headache..><