the future..?

When you think of the future, what do you think of? For me, next year is going into NS... i am not afraid, but just nervous that.. i may not have the strength and determination to fufil my destiny.. or in other words, my dream, to be a naval diver. Next year.. everyday i thought of it.. it draws nearer and nearer.. How in God's name can i survive the hell week..? it's all seem so impossible now.. and it seems, somehow, this is like a journey of my life.. i have to go through it, be it takes everything i got.. be it if i have to sacriface..i will and i must.
Why sometimes do i feel that this path i have to take is so cold and alone..?
Why sometimes i feel sadness at how the world is now..?
Why sometimes i just seem not to understand how materialistic and shallow people can be now..?
Why sometimes i feel so down, that i see no heroes in real life, only in movies and shows..?
Why sometimes, the world revolves around cheap and useless things? like fame and fashion.. things that never last.. why does people spend their time and lives on it?


"Why do we fall?, So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.."
-taken from Batman's Begin-