Remembering the older days..

Sometimes i see the people who resemble what i was 3 to 4 years ago.. i cant help but feel kinda jealous.. a more active, spritied, gung ho, cheerful me exist then.. but now.. it seems to died down alot.. maybe not so active due to work.. and maybe due to the changes that evolves and change a person in these short 4 years. But still.. if i was think back.. That time it was fun.. when i just came in into poly.. joined straight into Rovers.. wanted to have a fresh life from NCC, which i was in in sec sch. Utmost discipline, with no factions of emotions during trainings.. expecting the best from my sec1, same from myself.. during that time.. i was like.. inhuman. Then came to poly.. join rovers.. then.. its totally different.. Scouts.. i admire their skills.. but never their style and discipline.. its totally horrible. From the time i was in.. i learned their skills.. which are very important, first aid, rope, basic survival skills, kayaking, and living on the outside.. i must say they are useful.. but during these times in rovers.. seriously i still cant really adapt to the lifestyle they had... discipline is transparent.. fun and more fun.. blah.. alot of bullshit theory that sometimes at the back of my mind i was showing the third finger to the way they handle and do things. When i was in sec sch, NCC always never go well with Scouts.. one thing is that we always look down on their discipline and style. But Rovers.. i must say there were a few good men, i respected alot.. not all scouts are bad.. only some. Ya.. it was an eye opening for me.. a good learning experience..

Although, i felt the fire inside me died down.. peharps, i have seeing the world more differently now.. from a different prespective and angle.. And again.. what will the next two or more years be? what will i change to be again?

Have you ever have the experience that you wanna be with the person.. but the person just wanna you as a fren? yup.. i had.. and i seriously can understand what my good fren's situation.. Although i must say, i do not have the patience like my fren.. for this, i must applaude him.. well.. i never like waiting for a person for too long.. if it doesnt work.. then might as well lets part. But hey, if you are really happy with this configuration, then i have no say in this too;p just commenting to myself as always.

Note: This post has no strings attached to anyone or blog, just a thought.